Feelings

I’ve been spending a lot of time recently thinking about what makes a good life. It is most definitely something that exists at the nexus of actual situation and state of mind. But where, precisely, is the place to draw the line and say “I need to change something about my situation” or “I need to change something about my attitude toward my situation”? I hope I put that question mark in the right place, too.

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A lot of meditation experts and yoga instructors and therapists focus so much on the state of mind side of the equation. And I get why—so many elements of life are beyond our control. We can’t be born into different circumstances or given different bodies, so seeking peace from within makes a lot of sense.

I spent a good, solid work week staring at a computer screen spreadsheet of utility data recently. At the end of the week, despite the positive mindset I had mustered to get through it all, I realized I wasn’t living the life I really wanted. I like to be out in nature, and no amount of good attitude is going to suffice for how removed from that I have become in order to pay my bills.

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After this realization, I asked my husband to tell me what he thinks prevents people from living their best lives. “Why do I make money staring at a computer when I want to live on a farm?” I asked him. Complicated issues rarely have straightforward answers. It was one of those conversations where we both had to accept non-closure.

For now, only my mindset can get me through. But maybe we can also figure out a way to life more intentionally.

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Happy Sunday! Thanks for reading. Skirt is by Abstract Deep.